Needing You......

I wish I could find my way out of this maze into where I belong, I have just been stuck inside too long and am ready to give up, but I will never stop, because you are there, and will always be there. But walking in circles becomes extremely frustrating and can do a number on the soul, god gave us mountans so we can learn how to climb but without you as my griphold i'd be lost forever.

LIFE SUCKS @$$!!!!!

Ok so here it is, I have no idea what to do. I hate my job to the point i don't want to go anymore. My dad says not to quit but i can't seem to do anything right when i am there, its so boring i fall asleep and then miss what they say and then mess up the call. well when i mess up a call, I get more strikes against me and I only get 3 because i am prbationary. I want to quit but my dad says no, because i haven't found a new job. I can't do the job anymore and just wanna quit tomorrow. I need some help, leave some segestions.

Everchanging Lives..........

Everchanging
http://www. youtube. com/watch?v=PQ-1F-JG400

This Is a song that I really like and reminds me of whats happening.

Everchanging- Rise Against


In the face of change
Is when she turned to me and said,
"I'm not sure anymore..."

And now, amidst the waves and the cloudless skies
that'd blanket the year before,
I watch my life wash ashore.

Have you ever been a part of something
That you thought would never end,
And then of course it did?
Have you ever felt the weight inside you,
Pulling away inside your skin,
And then something had to give?

Now the lines are drawn,
Is this feeling gone?
The best parts of this have come and gone.
And now there is all this is.
With the reasons clear,
We'll spend another year
Without direction, full of fear,
But now things will be different.

There's nothing simple when it comes to you and I,
There's always something in this everchanging life,
And there probably always will.
Now that time is getting harder to come by,
The same arguments are always on our mind.
We've killed this slowly fading light.

Now the lines are drawn,
Is this feeling gone?
The best parts of this have come and gone.
And now there is all this is.
With the reasons clear,
We'll spend another year
Without direction, full of fear,
But now things will be different.

Now something has kept me here too long
And you can't leave me
If I'm already gone.
That says that something
Has kept me here too long
And you can't leave me
If I'm already gone.

Now that we
Make the same mistakes, we're always hanging on.
Break those promises we're always leaning on.
All this time spent waking up.
I keep this line open to get this call from you
Speak the words
That keep me coming back to you.
Now this time it's all different.

Now something has kept me here too long
And now I'm gone...

Back again......

Once again I am back posting here to let out some frustration with the events of my everyday life. My long time now, practically ex-friend Micah and I are having a "spat"(and thats putting it kindly). Well I guess a story should always have a beginning, middle and end, and since I have started at the end of the story I guess I should go ahead and finish the other 2 parts. Today I am going to take a really long story and make it short, because there is material within the story that I wish not to be made public. So here is the story. Micah and I met in middle school, in 8th grade. He was dating my best friend at the time. We became good friends in high school, And we did the typical, I tease you, you tease me back, kinda thing; and back then it was totally ok. Well , we both graduated from high school and remainded friends for quite some time. Well as was natural for us we continued the teasing, and the way that we started teasing was getting quite old. After I got really sick of it and we made a deal that we couldn't tease each other and we were doing good, but as such things in life, it didn't last very long. Just a few weeks ago, things kinda have been going down hill. His teasing was buging me really bad. One night I got so upset that I made myself sick and the next day was in bed puking the whole time. Well, I had had enough so I talked to him about it told him that I didn't want him doing that anymore. It never really did work out the way I wanted it to. Just the other day micah was teasing me about me being a tom boy, which in the sence that he used it in, I have girlier friend that had more guy traits then me, and he only calls me a tom boy. so I called him a name that we have been calling him since he bought his new car, because my dad had come up with it. He got all defencive and asked why I went for that one, "because it's the best one there is." So thats pretty much what started off the pissing match between micah, erie, and I. And at this point I have decided that if micah won't change then I will no longer hang out with him. Although I will be doing the fair because I promised I would. And also be housesitting for his mom near the end of the month, but regrettably I will no longer be hanging out with him. Maybe one day things can be simi normal between the 2 of us again, maybe not. But either way, I you are reading this, then I would like you to know that I did have some of the best time in my life with you and will never forget you. The time that we spent together was very important to me but as many things in life, not all things last forever. I hope that your life treats you fairly and you accoplish all that you dream. May your life eventually be filled with happiness and joy like you have never imaged, and the thing I hope the most is that you will never forget all the time we spent together and the knowledge that we learned from each other and the people that we hung out with. Here is a toast to all the trouble we might have gotten into had your quick thinking and quick mouth gotten us out of. I hope all your problems find themselves fixed and your nightmares never come true. It seems that once again I am not sure how to end a conversation with you. So Good~bye and Heres to hopeing our paths cross again.

Sincerely,
Constance